Quiet Time

[Pat]

Quiet time

The quiet descends, softly, subtly
The yarn flies quietly thru my fingers.
A sudden twitch, a second of nothing,
and time goes on, quietly, softly.

The afghan grows, the colors glowing,
as snow hits the window things seem
to stop, and yet not, as my fingers
keep flying with the crochet needle.

Is this quiet nothingness there, or not?
My fingers don't seem to stop,  the
quiet world blinks, but nothing differs
in the moment of quiet. Life goes on,
still did something happen or did I
drift off in the quiet, only God knows
for sure.

[Pat]

This poem or writing bothers me,.
I have questions, that may never
be answered. Unlike my other writings
most pain can be helped. This new thing
I don't understand...is it a way of
release from pain or stress or because
of it.

Please forgive me, for this blathering,
but maybe someone who reads it might
understand.

Pat 

[Millie]

Definitely not blathering, Pat. The feelings are very evocative. As to what is causing your new feeling, only you have the answer to that. Perhaps you are simply starting to question your life.
Take care of YOURSELF! You must do that so you can care for others.
Millie

[Pat]

Thanks for caring so much Millie!
I'm so glad you are my friend, you
have helped me more than you know!

LUV YA! Pat 

[Ingrid]

You are not blethering Pat.

When I read your words I feel that whilst you are sitting there in your 'quiet time' you have suddenly become ... aware.  Aware of what I do not know, but I think something quite special happened there ...

[shula]

Pat ,
This is the first time I have been able to use my computer for weeks thus I hadn't read your poem .
It says so much in a stream of consciousness way and tells me that you need your art and writing to help you through the pain and stress of life.
I know that when I am in pain(every day!) as it happens I find writing very cathartic,it doesn't always seem so at the time but later when I read back I begin to understand why we have to accept the things we do.
My biggest struggle was when I lost my son but now some of the things I wrote in my despair is helping other mothers that grieve,for no one understands the agony of a life taken in the way Jeremy's was unless one has been there.
I do know how it feels to be the way you are at present there are some books which I also use in order to try and understand if they will be of any help to you I will send you the titles.
Keep writing Pat and painting, you are so talented and I have appreciated your comments so much over the past years,in fact the Forum Members have given me more than I can say when I have been at my lowest.
Love
Sheila

[Pat]

Sheila,
I was writing about a new problem,
the neurologist says I have been
experiencing small seizures. I have
now been put through countless
tests (MRI, MRA, EEG, blood labs ect.)
The only one I talked to, Millie let
me use her shoulder. John, & Ingrid
also know now. But your post went
right to my heart! Thank you so much.
I wanted you to know, we'll find out
if I can drive or do anything else as
soon as the tests come back.

Love, Pat
PS love to know about any books on all subjects......

[Pat]

My reports came back. I will not be driving
for at least 6 months. That is the law here,
that you must be siezure free for six months
before you can drive....and must have the
Dr.'s ok.   I'm ok so far, no more siezures.
However unless my hubby drives me I'm
sorta house bound. The special bus services
cost an arm & a leg. O well, more time to
paint, write, crochet, & read!

LUV YA ALL!
Pat